The never ending struggle

My heart aches every moment for my sons arms around my neck, a kiss on the cheek, or just to hear an I love you mom from him.
I am so grateful for every second of his life that I was lucky enough to spend with him. Everyday is a struggle to hold it together. But I do because I share his story, our story. I do this so other moms know they are not alone. Maybe let them know the ups and downs they will have are normal, and to go with whatever gets you through. For others that have thankfully never had the loss of a child I hope this will help them maybe understand a little what our life is like after. After, it all comes down to after. We hold on to the memories of before but we always have to come back to “after”. And it sucks….

Go out, enjoy something today. Hug someone, find one thing to laugh about and above all, be grateful for life and breath….


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  1. Oh I cry as I read this post, I’ve just found your blog. I’m so terribly sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. It is ONLY through reading and sharing with other Mothers of lost children that I feel i can relate in any way. Thank you for sharing your life with us. I feel like you do, oh my, so much… I yearn to feel the gaze of my son’s eyes upon mine, his hugs, his laughter, his everything….it is an ache that no words do justice to… You helped me today. Thank you.

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