My heart aches every moment for my sons arms around my neck, a kiss on the cheek, or just to hear an I love you mom from him.
I am so grateful for every second of his life that I was lucky enough to spend with him. Everyday is a struggle to hold it together. But I do because I share his story, our story. I do this so other moms know they are not alone. Maybe let them know the ups and downs they will have are normal, and to go with whatever gets you through. For others that have thankfully never had the loss of a child I hope this will help them maybe understand a little what our life is like after. After, it all comes down to after. We hold on to the memories of before but we always have to come back to “after”. And it sucks….
Go out, enjoy something today. Hug someone, find one thing to laugh about and above all, be grateful for life and breath….