Grief is one of the most complicated emotions to navigate. It feels like several emotions rolled into one. Sadness, anger, frustration, numbness, I could go on and on. Three days from now we will start the 9th year without Artie. I still cannot wrap my mind around the fact that he is not here. I still forget some mornings, for a brief second that he is gone. Reliving that moment, remembering that morning, it all comes swirling around me like a hurricane. I spend my life trying my best to swim to shore, usually against the tide. Some days I want to give into the exhaustion and let the wave of sadness take me. I do not succumb because there is still much to do. So, every morning, I take a breath, thank God for my blessings, there are still so many, and keep swimming. September 14, 2023. Remember our boy..