So today was a total waste.. I accomplished absolutely nothing. Well, that is not entirely true. I read, meditated, finally got rid of my headache. Wolfgang and I cooked a nice lunch. He had a steak and asparagus. I had asparagus on Flatbread with garlic and balsamic vinegar. Oh and I baked a Cherry pie. I spent a lot of time talking to Artie today. I felt his presence very strongly. I guess he knew I was feeling crappy. I miss that boy. He always made everything okay, he still does. The memories help. Things pop into my mind that I have not thought of in a long time. I remember the first time we took the boys to the zoo. Wolfie was still pretty sick but Arthur loved it! He was more interested in the flowers and the trees though. I think he smelled every flower in the place. Our Zoo has a huge koi pond and he loved it! The fish are so used to people they just come right to you. He would just laugh and laugh at them. His laugh was musical even then. He so loved watching the little ones at the zoo when he got older too. We went many times with the grandkids over the years. Cherished times… It is the little moments that mean the most.
As silly as it seems, Olive Garden for the the first time without Artie was tough. I know exactly what he would have ordered, chicken marsala and a rootbeer. It didn’t really hit me until we were home and I grabbed the bottle of dressing we got out of the car. Arthur cooked the best steaks ever! He would marinade them in the dressing and they were always so tender and full of flavor. Just another reminder that the simple things, the things we take for granted are the very things we will miss when they are gone.
I miss you my boy. You are always here with me but I still miss your face.. I love you!
As grateful to the powers that be as I am for this great weather, I can’t help but wish Artie was here, ( in the flesh :)) to enjoy it. He loved being outside so much. Even if it was working in the yard or on the house. He loved walking and riding his bike. I do miss that kid more on nice days than bad. But, I am still enjoying this while it lasts. I am so anxious to get things in the garden and watch life renew itself around me. My birds are back in force already, feeders are full, squirrel bricks and corn out, and my hummingbird feeders are hanging. Even had a few bunnies out and about early this morning. I feel a sense of peace honestly the last few days. So many wonderful things are ahead of us and I intend to enjoy every moment. We can enjoy life, live it to the fullest and still hold Arthur and his memory close. I love him with all my heart and he me and our family. I know with every fiber of my being that love never truly dies.