It’s Spring break Artie. As much as I like the weather, I miss planning the Summer with you. It is so hard to be so lonely. I think I will feel alone for the rest of my life!
Sitting here on the porch this morning you are on my mind. It has been two and a half years since I hugged you, saw your smile or heard you laugh. So much has changed. Life is moving forward and as always, it is good! But… I miss you more everyday. I still get lost in thought with all of the things I wish I had done different, all of the things I wish we had done together and the so many things you will never do. I love you my sweet boy and pray you rocking with Elvis, talking about life’s purpose with John and enjoying a laugh with Robin!!
Facebook took it upon themselves to memorialize Arthur’s page. I am shocked that they did but there is nothing I can do about it. It just feels strange. After 2 and a half years it just makes everything seem so final. I like being able to go in and look through his posts. see his photos and know how much he was and is loved by so many. It brings back a feeling of loss I thought I was moving beyond.
Well here we are. Another birthday apart. The day you were put in to my arms the first time was the beginning of my greatest journey. I still feel this way. You have taught me more about life and love in the past few years than I got in my whole life. Fly high today baby!! I hope Wayne and Erik are keeping you busy today. : ) I love you Artie and I miss you with all my heart baby.
What was one of happiest days of my life is coming up soon. Arthur’s birthday is harder for me than the day he passed. I was so incredibly happy the day he was born and every day with him was such a blessing. I waited 13 years for him and 14 years with him was not enough. This is his 17th birthday coming up. It hurts so much to not to have him here. It will never stop hurting.