I miss you everyday. I still watch for you, and listen for your laughter. I am doing better, I really am. But I miss you. I still cry in the dark when I am alone. I choke back tears in public. I am still disappointed every morning when I wake to the reality of it. I still beg for this not to be real. I am alone even when surrounded by people. I will never be whole again. I will never be me again..