Yesterday was the 4th of July. A celebration of Freedom. It is also the last of our “firsts” without Artie. Our own Freedom from the daily waiting. Waiting for yet another first. The first birthdays, the first holidays and the first change of seasons. Now, we just have to get through the one year mark and we are golden. Sounds simple huh? Arthur is going to here waiting for the moment when we are breathing again. I know his spirit hurts for the pain we endure every moment without him. So now we go through the next 2 months, just like the the last 10. Struggling to breath, fighting to smile, the anticipation of the reminder of that morning looming heavy in the air. We will get through it. Once it is behind us, I just know we will find some peace in all of this. When he was a baby, Arthur waited for special moments to make monumental changes. He waited until his first birthday party to walk.. House full of people, his personal audience. That’s how he was. Always a huge presence. He didn’t do anything without it being extra special. I have no doubt he will be around for this monumental step toward our future.
Nothing you have had to endure over the past 10 months have been simple Lanny. Many days I think about what you have had to go through and I still can’t imagine what it is like for you, you are an amazing woman, and Mother.
There is nothing I can say about the 1 year mark except that I will have you all in my heart. We will and be thinking of Artie.