Today was a little bittersweet. I am having fun watching Wolfgang get ready for his first date Friday. He is excited and I love seeing it come together. I am positive Arthur would be excited for him as well. Then there is the knowing.. Knowing Arthur will never have a life here physically. No dates, no graduation, no college, no wife, no children… Some days, no matter how hard I try not to, I still feel like we have been robbed. It really is aggravating that I can’t get beyond that feeling. I don’t what to spend the rest of my days saying “If Artie was here” But it is out of my control unfortunately. I wake up every day with the intention of moving forward, I really do. But it is always here, the loss. Like a damn bump in the road. I’m going along just fine then BOOM!! It is right in front of me and I run right into it out of no where.. I have to just keep replacing my shocks I suppose, and stay on the road ahead of me..
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I am wife to Kurt, and mom to four amazing young people. Three of them are here on the earthly plane, one is in spirit. We have four grand children and we have been married sixteen years this September. i love animals, gardening and traveling. I started the blog for therapy, a place to put my feelings. It has been more healing than I ever imagined!! View all posts by Milann