With Mothers day less than a week away, I can feel the pain building. This is another one of those firsts without Artie. He was always the first one to wish me a Happy Mothers day.. I am keeping track of all of the firsts, counting them down, checking them off one by one. It is my countdown to healing. I keep telling myself, it will get easier once I get to the year mark.. All of the firsts will have been conquered, there won’t be that fear everyday of looking at the calendar to see what is coming up. Hopefully I will begin to really heal at this point…
I really hope this is true, I too am counting the firsts with only a month and a bit left before the first anniversary of my daughter. I desperately need to be on year two in the hope that the pain that breaks my heart will ease.