Here it is. A new year. For our family this means way more than just putting out new calendars. It means the beginning a new life. As I have said before, the life we had before Arthur left does not exist anymore. The best I personally can expect is to continue putting one foot in front of the other. I would like to just crawl into bed and get lost in my grief most days. But that would not Honor Arthur at all. His heart was so full of love and caring for people. My heart tells me the best way to show my love for him is to continue sharing love with others. Not just people we know. Strangers, others that are less fortunate, others that are lonely and feel there is no where to turn. And finally, moms. Every mom that has lost a child is feeling the loss the same today as the day it happened. Five years, ten or even twenty years from now I know I will still feel the loss just as much as I do at this moment. Each of us is feeling a different loss because each of our children brought different things to our hearts. It is hard to separate the feeling. I am hopeful for the new year. I am happy and grateful that I still have so many blessings. To all of you, moms like me, Happy New Year. I hope with all of my heart you find some peace this New Year and can still find hope in the blessing given you. To all of our angels watching over us, even though you are gone from this earth, be with us moms when you can. We will know you are here, next to us, guiding us in our darkest hours. Arthur, I can only hope you know how much I love you and how very proud I am of you. Happy New Year baby!