Letting go

When we carry anger, hurt even hatred with us it does so much more harm than we can imagine. Not only to ourselves, but to the people in our lives. Holding on to these emotions clouds our love and prevents us from seeing the good around us. We will miss the smiles of strangers, the random laughter of a child and the everyday sounds of nature if our hearts and mind are filled with the negativity of these emotions. When we carry them for long periods of time it is like dying from the inside out. Life full of darkness and low energy will consume you. Your loved ones suffer as well because (a) they see you as someone they don’t know anymore, a shell of who you once were and (B) your love for them will not come through. They will feel your heaviness so it starts to breed within them. Loss of a loved one is one of those times when these emotions are very likely to take over. Your entire being can easily become filled with hatred for whomever you think may have caused the loss. I was right there. Holding myself and other people responsible for the events that lead to Arthur’s choice to leave us. Thank God I have come to realize he was done with his life here. His journey and purposes had been fulfilled and it was time for him to move on. This by no means makes my pain any less, it just means I can deal with this loss without the heaviness of guilt or anger. Freeing me to move through the rest of my journey here peaceful and full of love and hope for the future.

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