Everywhere I go there is so much Christmas.. Most years we would be getting excited about it. Looking at new stuff for the yard, trying to decide on a tree, fake or real this year. Do we make wrapping paper or buy it. Will we get snow? Christmas will never be the same for our family. I wish there was a way to make sure that it is not horrible every year. 13 of Arthur’s Christmases were spent here in this house. The memories are wonderful and agonizing at the same time. I hope with all my heart he will be with us somehow and know how much we will miss him.